parang two years ago lang... 4th year high school pa ako.
ngayon, natatrabaho na ko, nakakagulat, andami-dami nang nanggyari, biruin mo, dalawang taon lang pala 'yun? dati, periodical exams lang ang pinoproblema ko. 2 years ago, i was still in a relationship, my first relationship, in fact. during my senior year, i always had the very least of worries. i used to only think about this and that, you know, kelan kaya magkakaroon ng cut na classes, or ano kaya ang sunod na maidrawing, minsan ultimo lessons sa room, kahit wala naman talagang ginagawa, umaangal pa 'ko. ngayon, ang iniintindi ko na, hindi dapat ako umabsent, kundi affected ang matrix ko, o kaya naman, kelan kaya ulit ako makakapagpahinga ng maayos, kelan ko kaya mafifix ulit ang body clock ko, i think i'm insomniac, magkano kaya susuwelduhin ko next pay day?... ibang-iba na talaga, ibang-iba.
you know, sometimes when i try to think of it, i think that me working at a young age is also good for me at the very least, kasi kahit papano, naexpose na ko sa "real world" ika nga ng mga matatanda. at first, i always was so careless and care-free. now, that i understand how hard it is to work for a living and earn money, i finally realize that money is not always there. that's why now i appreciate that i have what i have, you know, learn to appreciate things and be contented with it.
now, i'm ninteen years old, just one year away, and i'm not a teen-ager anymore. ang bilis bilis ng panahon. ngayon, i'm concerned at how i will take care of my future. things bother me sometimes, like kelan kaya ako gagraduate, or at least makapag-aral man lang ulit. ngayon kumikita na ko, and it feels good that you earn money, that's why it's hard to leave all these just to study again, alam niyo yun? masabi na lang na may natapos ka, kasi yan lang naman talaga ang ibig sabihin ng diploma ngayon e. pero i know, na i need it naman talaga, that's why studying again is quite a bother to me as of the moment. i really don't give a damn about relationships right now, seriously. i mean, i see a lot of single girls out there, pretty, simple, and kind. pero i don't make it a point to go out with them, not even think about it at the very least. hindi ko nga maayos ang buhay ko ngayon e, dadagdagan ko pa ng sakit sa ulo? haha. sure, oo, i admit that sometimes when i see couples out there walking together in a very sweet fashion, i feel envious, but then again, that can wait for me. i always make it a point to consider relationships the last choice in my prioritites as of now. love can wait, really. come to think of it, yung mga nakakasalubong ko na mga high school classmates ko dati, ngayon isa-isa na silang nagkakaroon ng kanya-kanyang boyfriends. nakakatawang isipin, kasi yung iba sa kanila, niligawan ko pa, yung iba naman never na may nanligaw o nagkagusto man lang for that matter noong high school, pero ngayon, mga lovely ladies na with matching holding hands with their boyfriends pa! haha, all these stuff, just within two years time. maybe ganito lang talaga, sa age ko na nagtatransition from young to adult, e sadyang mabilis lang ang pagbabago ng mga bagay-bagay sa paligid ko, which is kinda cool, because i get to experience a lot of new things.
ngayon, natatrabaho na ko, nakakagulat, andami-dami nang nanggyari, biruin mo, dalawang taon lang pala 'yun? dati, periodical exams lang ang pinoproblema ko. 2 years ago, i was still in a relationship, my first relationship, in fact. during my senior year, i always had the very least of worries. i used to only think about this and that, you know, kelan kaya magkakaroon ng cut na classes, or ano kaya ang sunod na maidrawing, minsan ultimo lessons sa room, kahit wala naman talagang ginagawa, umaangal pa 'ko. ngayon, ang iniintindi ko na, hindi dapat ako umabsent, kundi affected ang matrix ko, o kaya naman, kelan kaya ulit ako makakapagpahinga ng maayos, kelan ko kaya mafifix ulit ang body clock ko, i think i'm insomniac, magkano kaya susuwelduhin ko next pay day?... ibang-iba na talaga, ibang-iba.
you know, sometimes when i try to think of it, i think that me working at a young age is also good for me at the very least, kasi kahit papano, naexpose na ko sa "real world" ika nga ng mga matatanda. at first, i always was so careless and care-free. now, that i understand how hard it is to work for a living and earn money, i finally realize that money is not always there. that's why now i appreciate that i have what i have, you know, learn to appreciate things and be contented with it.
now, i'm ninteen years old, just one year away, and i'm not a teen-ager anymore. ang bilis bilis ng panahon. ngayon, i'm concerned at how i will take care of my future. things bother me sometimes, like kelan kaya ako gagraduate, or at least makapag-aral man lang ulit. ngayon kumikita na ko, and it feels good that you earn money, that's why it's hard to leave all these just to study again, alam niyo yun? masabi na lang na may natapos ka, kasi yan lang naman talaga ang ibig sabihin ng diploma ngayon e. pero i know, na i need it naman talaga, that's why studying again is quite a bother to me as of the moment. i really don't give a damn about relationships right now, seriously. i mean, i see a lot of single girls out there, pretty, simple, and kind. pero i don't make it a point to go out with them, not even think about it at the very least. hindi ko nga maayos ang buhay ko ngayon e, dadagdagan ko pa ng sakit sa ulo? haha. sure, oo, i admit that sometimes when i see couples out there walking together in a very sweet fashion, i feel envious, but then again, that can wait for me. i always make it a point to consider relationships the last choice in my prioritites as of now. love can wait, really. come to think of it, yung mga nakakasalubong ko na mga high school classmates ko dati, ngayon isa-isa na silang nagkakaroon ng kanya-kanyang boyfriends. nakakatawang isipin, kasi yung iba sa kanila, niligawan ko pa, yung iba naman never na may nanligaw o nagkagusto man lang for that matter noong high school, pero ngayon, mga lovely ladies na with matching holding hands with their boyfriends pa! haha, all these stuff, just within two years time. maybe ganito lang talaga, sa age ko na nagtatransition from young to adult, e sadyang mabilis lang ang pagbabago ng mga bagay-bagay sa paligid ko, which is kinda cool, because i get to experience a lot of new things.
